IAN Holloway was left "shocked and horrified" after Millwall were thrashed 5-1 by Middlesbrough at The Den.
Holloway apologised to Lions fans following an "horrendous" day for the club – and said he understood criticism directed at him from the stands.
He said: "I don't blame people – I blame myself and that's what I'm going to do. I want to get it right but today it didn't go right. I don't blame my players, I blame me.
"I have got far too many people to pick from at the moment and some of them don't know what Millwall's all about – they haven't had days like this.
"It was an awful day but what it does do is make you strong. I apologise to the fans because that was unrecognisable from how we've been in training the last couple of days.
"We made some terrible mistakes as a group and individually but I accept http://www.cheaptopamaxbuy.com responsibility for all of those mistakes because that's my job.
"I take full responsibility but I can assure you it doesn't downhearten me. This only spurs me on to get it right and make things better.
"These boys have tried their socks off for me recently but that was unrecognisable. That wasn't good enough.
"Individuals didn't win their challenges and I wasn't expecting that because of the size and combativeness of everybody.
"I do apologise to the fans, so blame me. It's not an issue. We've got to roll our sleeves up, accept responsibility and do better.
"I'm shocked and horrified. It was horrendous. It was an awful day – probably my worst in football to be honest because I can't explain the choices we made."
Holloway's decision to start with three defenders backfired horribly as Boro raced into a four-goal lead before half time.
"We practised that formation all week and I felt we needed to start that way," said Holloway.
"I wanted to get if forward, put their back four under pressure and draw them onto us.
"We didn't make the right choices. Just about everything that we could do wrong went wrong.
"If I didn't start with two up front, I'd have been a little bit crazy. Is two up front right all the time? Not really. Did I think it would work today? Yes I did.
"Boro were crisp, sharp and confident, and everything they hit went in. If David Forde wasn't on form, the scoreline could have been a lot worse than that."
Defender Danny Shittu, who came off the bench to play the second half, gave a speech in the dressing room after the game.
"What Danny said at the end was inspirational," revealed Holloway.
"He said that if you play for this club, you have to be brave. If you are, the fans will stick with you. Danny was immense and we all needed to hear that."